SLEEPING LIKE A STONE
Last night, I slept like a stone. Tonight, I can’t sleep at all. I just keep wandering back into my kitchen, opening the cupboards, and staring at my empty bottle of Effexor. I don’t like taking anti-depressants, but I have to, at least until I feel better. I try to tell myself not to feel so bad, but I can’t help it. Even my PI attorney who’s helping me with the lawsuit told me I needed to relax more, but that’s easier said than done. How would you feel if your ex-girlfriend hit you with a car? I was thinking of asking her to marry me and then I found out she’d been cheating on me and that she’d been cheating on the guy she’d been cheating on me with. When I found out and confronted her, she ran away and I went after her and then she hit me with her car and she drove off! She has more than a few charges set against her and I want as many of them to stick as possible. Still, I can’t help but feel regret. We dated for 3 years and I wanted to marry her. I feel like I never really knew her at all. How could she have been a different person all along all this time? I suppose I’m lucky I didn’t end up marrying her and finding all this out later.